falling out, slowly falling out

the past months had been hard on me. well, not all were bad, but mostly. i took a trip overseas and it was great, and i made a lot of fond memories. i am now thinking of maybe working on my papers to really go overseas. it was a business trip and my patience, my maturity, and my work ethics were really tested. don't worry, i came out of it just fine. it was also a chance for me to reflect on my life and this guy who i thought was you. you see, when i asked God to send me you, i asked for Him to help me identify you. i asked for three signs. those three signs were revealed and now, since then, i never had a moment of peace. well, until i made the decision to just let go of the though that i was in love with him. what happened was, the signs manifested through this person that i never would've considered as you. to cut the long story short, i have fallen for him. and don't blame me for this, please. agony---that's how i describe it. he's in love with another girl. i have made the decision to just forget about him and the signs and all the coincidences that had been happening. i don't want to fall for the wrong guy so please, please show yourself or just make your presence felt!!! i am so angry that i have to go through all these things while you just live your life the way you want to. i'm almost tired and i'm on the verge of giving up!!!